I was thinking about how many jobs I have had in 35 years and remembered that at 22 it had already reached 80. Some only lasted a few minutes before I realised I couldn’t be arsed and some lasted as long as……… 2 months! There were a load of “training courses” included in that number and a few attempts at self employment. The one thing that did remain “constant” was “Boredom”! I quickly became bored with all of it.
I went to the “Employment advice centre” in BSE once and had a full assessment of what I could do. The man who saw me was a retired businessman who after 2 weeks of deliberation kindly informed me, “I was Unemployable”! NOT because I wasn’t capable of any particular job, but because he thought I was more “Self employed” material. Problem was, that at the time the DHSS considered a “Bucket and ladder” the best way to get people started, I think it was more likely they didn’t want to invest any more money than the cost of same!
Now I am NOT work shy! But I DO insist that if I am to provide MY labour in return for money, I would like the lion’s share of that money for myself. I haven’t really managed to get beyond 80% of it going on “Living” expenses and a little “Pocket money” left for me, so I am not going to do that. I have looked quite carefully at the rise in living costs over the years and the “Lack” of rise in earnings, the most obvious example being the cost of a house/flat whatever. It was once possible to buy one on your tod with a mortgage that could be dealt with in 25 years! That is no longer possible for the average earner, that tells me, “we are being shagged” it has been a sneaky steady increase in what one pays to live and has been largely ignored because the anaesthetic is television. I haven’t watched it for 6 months now and I find my brain is starting to get stimulated again. See the problem for me is, I am easily led into falling for the “shiny” things! Yes, I loved expensive clothes and watches. For fucks sake, I have “Zimmerli” underwear! There is a photo on my FB I looked at yesterday and realised that every piece of clothing was a “Label” not just an average designer label, oh no, jacket was a 100% Cashmere blazer, shirt, Brioni, Tie, Emilio Pucci, Watch, Cartier, socks, Pantherella, Trousers, Loro Piana, Boots, John Lobb and yes Undies, Zimmerli! Now had my name been Alan Sugar or Donald Trump, I might have been able to get away with it but FFS, I was potless! Slowly but surely I am getting rid of all these “Illusions” on eBay. I had suckered for Mark Twain’s quote “Clothes make the man” they may well have had an influence on how one was viewed back in the 1880’s and it would still help open a few doors today but that is totally “Dishonest”! I have even been refused work because the interviewer was “Intimidated” by my appearance, a professional recruitment company in NZ told me “try and dress down” as you will find it hard to get a job looking too smart!
Having been “dishonest” in my life I know it is useless. I don’t want to be dishonest in any areas anymore; it’s a fucking trial having to maintain an illusion in both appearance and manner. It is also what keeps the status quo, rich, poor, them us etc. as long as I have a hole in my arse I will not accept there is any justification in one man having billions when billions have nothing. I am not a socialist, I just don’t see why “Hard work” should ever result in little reward and some do very little and get millions. If “I” worked hard to build up a business and it made millions and was the result of help from all the workers then the share should be more equal.
When I call a call centre and get some slack mouthed indolent tosser who is of no help, I am NOT going to be surprised!
Where am I going with this? Well, if I had left school and pursued a course of action not unlike the one most people have followed, and then after 35 years realised that things were not any better than when I left school, “I would be majorly pissed off”
How many times have the goal posts moved! And if you say “ah, that’s life”! I am certainly going to reply “Is it”!?
Going to watch the “Royal”? Wedding this weekend? Remember the last one? If I were Kate, I would try my best not to piss off Philip and steer well clear of Paris! “I” don’t know what really happened, but then “No one does”! Suffice to say it was about as honest as a banker.
Wiki leaks are only a problem because they don’t want us to know the devious bullshit that goes on in our name. And whether we like it or not, it’s ALL about flogging guns and buying oil!
And the worst of everything is the Media. They know full well that if they run a story and then pull it, it will be forgotten about quite quickly! My problem if you like, is I still remember “Stephen Waldorf” Sean Greenhaulgh, Ben Lewis’s report on the Art scam, all the things that have quietly gone away but the shit that created or surrounds them is still happening. You may say, well, the Stephen Waldorf” thing is done and dusted? What about “Ian Puddick” then? Waldorf just got pistol whipped, Puddick is being “Terrorised”! That seems like a major escalation of tactics. And what are millions of people going to do this weekend? “Watch the |Royal wedding and wonder who designed her dress!
Raymond Baxter told me all sorts of brilliant things would happen by now, and I fell for it! That really pisses me off.
I just proofed the above before deciding to post it and I thought “what a load of aggressive reactionary disjointed anger that is! But then, I still believe it, I did think, but I am not that angry!! I have a great laugh generally; I love to find humour in life, “fuck me” “I have to”
Luckily, all that is how I feel and I don’t have to make it my life’s story. All I insist on is keeping well aware of my surroundings and a weather eye on when I need to get out the crossbow and dig in!
“Coming soon, Relationships”! (I should cocoa)
