Do something, "Anything"!

Am I “that weird”?I often wonder if there was a major omission in my development; I mean, how is it that whilst having a reasonably intelligent brain (others say it not me) and an ability to rationally analyse most circumstances, I still fail to grasp some apparently “normal” behavioural aspects of other people? From a “relationship” point of view, I am not even going to try and figure it out anymore! But from a more general perspective I am struggling with the mentality of some people’s beliefs. For example: it seems logical and reasonable to believe that an individual would do their utmost to maintain a “position” they like. If one had reached a certain level of financial success you would likely try and protect it quite vigorously? And the evidence of that protection would be fairly obvious. Ones attitude would be defensive against anything that threatened that position? It seems to me therefore that taking it to a higher level would be a no brainer! Any “elite family” (of many generations) Rothschild’s for example, are probably going to “defend” their wealth and assets with a ruthless vigour? My problem with this scenario is that: as an individual is quite capable of ruthless downright criminal behaviour in their search for whatever it is they are searching for, is it not reasonable to believe an “elite family” would also do “Anything” to maintain a position?? It can’t surely be “Impossible” to believe?

I always thought “if you can think it, it is probably possible” I also always thought “man is capable of “Anything” both good and bad. I believe fundamentally, man would happily enslave his fellow man in order to get what he wants and I believe he is and has been doing exactly that for millennia. I had a girlfriend who quite happily said she would become an assassin and have no compunction in dealing with the likes of Fred Goodwin, we both felt that way yet we don’t, we get on with life as best we can but it left me thinking, well, “States” do it all the time! They always find some “justification” for it they just don’t openly accept they do it. How in the hell can “That” be part of “acceptable society”?? It is wrong for individuals to do it but ok for governments?? They aren’t doing it for “Our” benefit! The Israeli hit squads don’t say hang on a minute government; we can’t just “Decide” on someone’s guilt and kill them! We have a system of innocent until proven guilty! Usually dealt with by an open court! They just go and do it. Frankly, “I” don’t have a clue about Osama Bin Shot other than what the “Western media” has told me! Is that “Media” whiter than white? I don’t bloody think so. I just don’t get how most people can carry on as if everything is sort of OK when the evidence that it is NOT ok is all around us.

I have had this thought process for as long as I can remember; there is no way I am going to “contribute” to a system that allows the likes of the worlds Bankers for e.g. to get away with robbing the population of its hard earned! We all “Know” they have pulled a fast one and got away with it and what have we really done about it? “Fuck all”! There are big fat odious scum sat on mega yachts as we speak enjoying the fruits of “Your” labour because they screwed the system. That alone should have galvanised the general population into “decisive action” how are these parasites of ANY benefit to “Your” life?  For the last couple of years a few people and corporations have made billions while the rest struggle! Another no brainer that there is something fundamentally wrong with the system. I guess people are too scared to believe there could be another way, a different way.

I don’t really know what the answer is; I have a few ideas, but no definitive solution. What I DO know is: doing NOTHING isn’t an option! I hate it when innocent people get hurt by “activists” but I admire the courage of anyone who risks their own freedom/life in an attempt to make a change. Britain’s wealth (now gone) was built on its army’s ability to “terrorise” (don’t give it a fancy name!) other nations and it was born out of nothing other than “greed” by a few people “for” a few people, “Nothing” has changed other than those few people have abandoned the “flag” they used to hide behind.

Random randomness.

The 21^st May came and went much the same as any other day on Planet Earth; no skies full of “enraptured” souls going home and nothing new in world geological movements either. Any surprise there? No, didn’t think so.

We are “Biological”, why is that so hard for some people to live with? I have absolutely no need to rely on an “afterlife” in order to live this “actual” one!

I admit to having spent many years thinking about something as yet unknown, possible “spiritual existence” soul, metaphysics in general and yet I have an abiding feeling we are simply “smart monkeys” (not that smart!) why would that be so bad anyway? Maybe if we accepted we have a small lifespan and that we must leave behind our children, we should make every possible effort to make the planet a “Far better” place for them and theirs. The ludicrous thing is that we can and have had the power to make Earth a paradise for centuries but politics commerce and religion have stopped it fundamentally in its tracks. “Politicians”? “A few greedy men attempting to line their pockets” Merchants ditto, religious leaders ditto.

I have been accused of so many things over thirty five years because I have not been a real part of “society” having lived a life outside the confines of gainful employment etc I have been able to take a good long hard look at how it all works and what it really represents. Now most people will have some derogatory comment about that life and me in general, it won’t be anything I haven’t heard before and it will flow like water off the ducks back; it doesn’t matter to me. It is clear that there is a comment or metaphor created for anyone who questions the system and it is designed to be an attack on an individual’s moral status. I was thinking about the word “Vagabond” and how it has negative connotations; In the law of England, the Vagrancy Act 1824 provides that “every person wandering abroad and lodging in any barn or outhouse, or in any deserted or unoccupied building, or in the open air, or under a tent, or in any cart or waggon, [...] and not giving a good account of himself or herself [...] shall be deemed a rogue and vagabond,” and may be imprisoned for up to three months on conviction by a magistrate .How  can anyone look at that history and feel we are anything but free! I didn’t realise I was born into slavery but whichever way you look at it, we are slaves. If you find that palatable, that’s ok, but what about those who find it abhorrent? I don’t want to kill anyone and I think I should have the right to make that decision, but by being a member of a group or society that wages war, I am tacitly approving that action! I won’t do that and if I am made to, I am a slave. Having been told a lot of my arguments are “simplistic” I have decided to work everything back to “simplicity”! Most things really are quite simple they have just been obfuscated by the wordsmithery of politics. “Sorry India, we are skint, we cannot give you any money”! Simple.

Over the last few decades America has spent 5.3 trillion on defence weaponry and other war tools, think about that number. One trillion dollars today would allow you to buy Coca Cola, Apple, IBM, Bank of America, Ford, General Motors, Toyota, Motorola, AT&T, as well as Exxon Mobil and STILL have enough left over to live comfortably on just the interest from the billions left over– not to mention the profits these companies generate. And yet ……………………………….sorry if you think I am a dreamer but that just doesn’t make sense. I refuse to even try and get my head around senseless things. Apparently it was necessary to keep America free? Hmmm, today America is 1.4 trillion in debt! Call that freedom?

So anyway, here is what will happen one day soon:

Everything you thought you knew will be proved false. Everything you thought you owned will be taken or rendered worthless. One day you WILL be a controlled unit of economic collateral (probably are already) you will NOT have any say in how you live (effectively don’t now) Mr Camping will die an earthly death and I reserve the right to amend these predictions if I bloody well choose to. J

to sell or not to sell.

The year is 1979; I have a shiny silver Mohair suit and black suede winkle picker shoes. I just managed to get accepted on a sales training course for a company called “Alico” (American Life Insurance Company) (that must have taken some brain power to come up with that name!)

I had 4 days to learn all I could about how to con, I mean persuade, someone they “really needed accident protection cover” 

The head office was in Crawley if memory serves me correctly, one of those big glass and steel monstrosities that probably don’t exist now (hopefully) there were 5 or six of us doing the course only one was a woman. I won’t forget her because she looked a little like Jodie Foster and she drove a new Fiesta XR2; it was the era of the Hot Hatch. “I” was without wheels which I didn’t give much thought to at the time even though it would be helpful in getting from town to town in order to harass, er I mean persuade people they really DID need cover.

Every morning we would all pile into a room and the sales trainer Paul would start by getting one of us to sing “Zippadee doo dah” not kidding! One would start and the rest would follow. It was a means of psyching up for the day and developing a happy mood! When it was my turn to start I was mortified, I was so shy and couldn’t perform in any way in front of strangers; but I did start, I started with my head facing slightly down and mumbling: zipadeedoodah zipadee ay, my oh my what a wonderful day……………and then everyone else chimed in and before you knew it we were all doing impressions of the great man himself! Then when it was over “everyone was laughing and talking as if they were at a party”! This system was loosely called “PMA” positive mental attitude.

Having started the day this way we were all quite prepared for the training sessions and they were quite fun. We would create situations and take turns as sales and conned er customer. A few days in and we were “tested” there was a prize to be had and yep, it was me wot won it, I was the bees knees in training, the dogs cojones, and what did I win? I won a book called “The success system that never fails” written by W C Stone. I was hoping for a car or something practical but no, I got a book!

A few times in my life I have come across people who have made it financially well and there have been those who applied the techniques of PMA. I even met a man when Barbara and I had the yacht who told me to “write down what I wanted and I would get it” if it was really what I wanted. What they are all getting at really is “focus” drive, direction, heading off with blinkers in order to achieve one goal “Wealth” the fact is, it works, of course it works! If you really have that drive and you exclude all else, you likely WILL achieve the goal. I often wonder why this approach hasn’t worked for other goals like world peace animal rights etc, it seems to have most positive effect when applied to Money. I wonder if it is because the desire for wealth has become the biggest driver of human effort now? I don’t know.

Back at Crawley the course finished and Paul took me to one side and said he had great expectations for or of me! He was mighty impressed with my training and would do everything in his power to see that I succeeded! We went to an “Alico” conference where awards were being given out to existing salespeople for their achievements and then at the end we were welcomed into the fold and given a gift, it was a little round side plate that had been created with a slogan on it, it said; “you have always said you will do (whatever) when you get around to it, well this is your “round tuit” so now you have no excuse”!  They had called a “Plate” a “Round Tuit” I was still hoping it was going to be a fucking car! But no, a “Plate”

Well, out on the street was a different matter. We had been told to be in Maldon (Essex) in the morning where we would start selling insurance.

Alico was clever, being a part of the largest insurance company in the world it could be. Alico took NO prisoners! We were told we started at the top of the high street and visited “Every” shop business on it. From cobbler to Bank. It was “cold calling extreme”

I was on one side and the “divorcee XR2 blonde” was on the other. My side had the Cobbler and hers the Bank!

I walked into the Cobbler and said “Hi, my name is Tony and if you have a minute I would like to talk to you about ……………..he responded “Insurance”!! Insurance!! I have had bloody insurance up to here!!! Now we had been taught “rebuttals” or “AH Buts’” but I can tell you, “I wasn’t going to try and go any further with this fella” he wasn’t happy.

Now bear in mind I was 19 ish and I was dressed in shiny silver mohair suit with those beautiful black suede winkle pickers. I was 6’2” and weighed around 9 stone! I must have looked like a silver toothpick! Meanwhile miss bloody wonderful was dressed in boob enhancing top and looked gorgeous! I ended the day with 2 sales to her 10, and that is how it went for the week. It wasn’t going to happen and I was ruining my shoes AND my feet!

Paul told me I had to persevere and he was really motivating but frankly, at that age and in those clothes and without a car I found “Motivation” very difficult. So I quit. What I discovered about the experience was that “everyone” “THOUGHT” I would make a great salesman, what they really didn’t realise was that if the product was shit I couldn’t sell it. I was too nice to people and didn’t like selling them something they didn’t want or need.

This situation has repeated itself several times in my life from English fine bone china to Motorcycles, if “I” don’t like it, “I” can’t sell it!  If that isn’t some kind of “Honesty” I don’t know what is.

Money.

Money doesn’t care if you live or die

Money doesn’t care if you laugh or cry

Money doesn’t care if you’re rich or poor

Money’s just another word for whore.

Why do I hate money? Well, “hate” is a strong word and requires energy so I suppose I don’t “hate” it, I just dismiss it.

Money? What the fuck is that all about! It seems like a “Middle man” to me, and we all loathe middlemen, don’t we?

You can trace the evil of “Money” all the way back to……………. Well, a soddin long way back. “It is the ROOT of all evil apparently, but the establishment that represents that view has more of it than anyone! And, positively encourages those who have both none and loads to give them more! Not sure why the blatant hypocrisy of that little scenario eludes people.

Don’t get me wrong here, I wish I had oodles of the stuff; but that is as far as it goes! I am not going to chase the damn thing for 60 years when it is as stable as a three legged chair sat upon by Cyril Smith! Oh bloody no. I have had some, once, and it was awful! I couldn’t keep hold of it for love nor…………….. Well, it slipped through my fingers like sand. It would even “Talk” to me! It would say things like “go on, use me to satisfy that daft need to look like something you are not” it would.

They say “Money talks”! Yes it does, and what it says is “give up your life for me” can you imagine that! Give up your life for an illusion (actually, if you believe in the Bible (instead of the Babble) you probably CAN believe it)

Ok, that’s a bit daft isn’t it, after all, with money you can buy food and toys (hey, we all have differing priorities you know!) but let me ask you a question; “what if it suddenly disappeared”? It’s gone and you have never heard of it? The word “Bank” only conjures up the scary approach to Gibraltar airport or a heap of earth beside a road. Are we really so feeble of mind that we believe all the things we have achieved in history “Needed” money to make them happen! It was a manipulation by those who had no “real” worth that brought it about and it is STILL being controlled by the same people! “YOU” are the providers of the wealth to the unworthy.

"Writing"

I can think of at least 3 ex girlfriends who said “you should write”. One was HR Director at Reid Elsevier so “should” have had a little knowledge on the matter. Another provided me with the environment under which I “Should” have been able to “produce” but it didn’t happen. And then there was Emma Shackle, my Psychology Tutor who even remarked “Your essays are very entertaining, Journalistic even” but she also observed that my “reading” required “Deeper effort”! I would read quickly, pick up on the salient points and then bang out 5000 words. It was quite effective from a “points” point of view!

What I was not able to do very effectively, was “stay on track”! Punctuation and grammar were also woefully inadequate and I would also get carried away on some contentious issue to the point of anger. Tom, the Sociology Tutor saw elements that he described as “Visionary” in my essays but also concluded that I was “NO Academic” J

I have to ask myself “why would I want to write anyway?”  For the moment it is an exercise in catharsis; I have had a very noisy cerebrum for at least 35 years and that coupled with a faulty cerebellum and an overactive Amygdala! Does NOT make for a very coherent writer!

I know that when I “write” it comes out lacking the detail of what I am trying to say. Even the “essence” seems faulty when I re-read what I have written, so it still seems a little early to be thinking of writing. I have not the desire to write something I have not developed complete confidence in! There are also “rules” which currently, completely evade me.

Having said all that; I DO like to empty my head of things now and then and THAT is what this blog is about. So for the moment “spontaneous waffle” suits me just fine and dandy.

I purchased “Dragon Naturally Speaking” a while ago and have been unable to make it work so my dream of being able to “talk” and have it transcribed, has been dashed.

When I was 39 I was involved with a Swiss girl. That, like all before, had fizzled out but I was quite taken with her and so tried my best to re-kindle the relationship. I was working in Vienna but not enjoying the job and so one day I purchased a bicycle and panniers and decided to cycle to Wettingen in Switzerland. This I decided to do in March and via the Tyrol! It was foolhardy but an exciting prospect. Now I decided to write on the journey, and record everything.  It was a log and a diary and some form of poetry and it ended up looking like a love story. Fran (ex Reed Elsevier) read it one day and said “god Tony, this is great, you should get it published” I asked where the hell would I do that, and she replied in a “Women’s magazine”!

For me, after having re-read it, it just looked like a load of sad romantic slush and I was not happy with it. I certainly didn’t want to have something that seemed to me, naïve nonsense, published and so it never went any further. I have since lost the laptop it was on, so now cannot even edit it to my satisfaction. So far, anything I have written has been quite interesting to me because it has shown how much my thoughts have changed over the years.

It is also quite depressing for me to know my views/feelings are quite out of step with the “Norm”. it “doesn’t bother me “That” much but it does make me think “what’s the point in saying what no one wants to hear” you go through life “Knowing” you are alone in your mind and that a whole bunch of people say “well I am not bloody surprised!” no, I am not surprised they are not surprised! (Do you ever get a word or phrase that just keeps repeating itself over and over in your head and no matter what you do, it won’t stop?)

Annoyingly, (for me anyway) is that one of the subjects I would most like to concentrate my mind on, is “relationship” it has been the overwhelming preoccupation in my life and still confuses and befuddles the living hell out of me!

Problem is………… they are a seriously difficult thing to remain objective about. But it is my belief that it is a key subject in human development and it is not given enough importance in that development.

"A Moral dilemna"

I have heard the words “moral compass” a few times recently and so I wanted to waffle on about it.

It seems to me the word “Moral” is a very divisive one. There are no actual rules just a general expectation of how one should behave. “I” for example have NO morals. I don’t want any either, it should be then, that as I have none, there can’t be any argument!

“of, pertaining to, or concerned with the principles or rules of right conduct or the distinction between right and wrong; ethical: moral attitudes.” I mean, how bloody subjective is that lot!

The “elite” have none either, how could they. Politicians too. I am not going to list the multitude of “wrongs” done by the above they should be bleedin obvious to us all by now, but I am surprised that there are still people who blindly follow a “Moral path” they may say “yes, well, they are MY particular set of morals” but that is bollocks! They only have them because they were taught them and they generally work well in their particular world. When Aldous Huxley wrote “and the judge looked at the man in the dock and had to look away because he briefly saw himself” he was expressing perfectly normal natural state of affairs. “It’s wrong to kill”? No it isn’t, “It’s wrong to steal” no it isn’t, “It’s wrong to Lie, cheat, fiddle, etbloodycetera! I don’t think ANY of the so called “Bad” things are necessarily “Bad”! Obviously it “all depends on the circumstances”. If you rip me off and I can’t get recourse via the law, I will rip you off right back. If that makes me Immoral” bring it on!

Why do big businesses get away with what we would rightly call “immoral behaviour”? Because they are NOT human, a business is just that. And “You” are considered a “Business” if you deal with them. Anyway I digress……. The reason for the “Moral Blog” is because I was thinking about whether it would be considered wrong to do something to satisfy a nagging suspicion.

I could say, “bollocks", if I am unhappy about a feeling I should dispense with the cause and move on” but you see, the problem is, I feel I need to KNOW if my feeling is justified! I simply cannot go through life “Wondering” as well as “Wandering”! One is enough!!

Of course if everybody was truthful there wouldn’t be any dilemma! But let’s not delude ourselves; most moral compasses these days need a damn good “re-calibrating”

Plus, all compasses have 360 degrees, you can’t just go north! If you do you will miss loads of potentially interesting things.

Someone mentioned the “Trolley problem” to me the other day and I thought, fuck it, I would make “whatever decision” FELT right at the time! It isn’t a dilemma for me,

It goes like this:

A trolley is running out of control down a track. In its path are five people who have been tied to the track by a mad philosopher. Fortunately, you could flip a switch, which will lead the trolley down a different track to safety. Unfortunately, there is a single person tied to that track. Should you flip the switch or do nothing?

Firstly, if “That” was ALL the information available, being a supporter of the Optimum population trust (now renamed population matters) I would probably save the one. However, there could be a plethora of reasons to make the other choice from age to gender to personal knowledge of the victims; it’s a bit of a daft scenario. One thing is for sure “Nothing” isn’t an option!

A more interesting “dilemma”? Would be (for me) you believe someone is or has lied to you or deceived you or stolen from you. The evidence is within your grasp but to get it, you must essentially “spy” or go through their things. If you are correct about your suspicion but do nothing, they get away with it, if you succumb to the curiosity and do the deed, you have essentially done something else “underhand” but what if you are proved right? (Moral dilemma, “The ends don’t justify the means”!) “Bollocks”!! We use “Spies” all the time in order to be aware of other country or persons behaviour/actions. We simply apply a “Justification” in that instance. Personally I don’t give a fuck what my country says “we need to know”! They haven’t seen fit to let me know “WHY” so I do not agree on the course of action. If they deem it important enough to seek my approval to “govern me” they sure as hell need it to make the decision to sell bombs to despots. You NEVER see that one in the manifesto!

So back to the “sneaky peeking” if you do nothing and the person “Had” been lying or whatever, then they have got away with it. If you do “Something” you have also committed a “wrong”. So, so far we have “two wrongs”! And what do they make?? “Wrong”! No, I mean, “Right”! No, what I “mean” is, two wrongs do NOT automatically NOT make a “Right”? Forgetting about the juvenile “two wrongs don’t make a right” crap, what they may well do is, make a difference upon which you can, “make a decision”! “A VALID decision. What we need to remember is if you were right, then they started the whole fucking problem by being deceitful! That is to say; don’t fuck with me; if you fuck with me then I am definitely going to fucking fuck with you! “Fuck it” Simple, do you know, no matter how many times I look at this type of dilemma, I simply can’t come to another conclusion. It just seems absolutely fair to me. (This is how I feel)

This scenario has happened in my life where “I” have been “caught out” and when “They” have been caught out. What interests me most is when “I” have been sussed, I blub and stick my hands up! “It’s a fair cop guvnr” but when it’s been the other way round! Blimey!  Have the banshees been let loose or what! “How dare you blah blah blah”!  I can never get my head around the discovery of the “original” issue suddenly being relegated to a “secondary issue”!!!

(This is what I do)

My attitude these days is; if I have a suspicion or a feeling something isn’t quite right, I decide to accept my feeling as the truth and leave it at that. In other words “I do nothing” which is contrary to the Trolley Problem. Yes they get away with it maybe but if I do something underhand it always comes back on me, all I can say is may the same fortune smile on you.

Just re-read this and ALL the instances of the world "Dilemna" have been changed to the American! 

E&oe. All of the above is entirely fictitious, all characters and scenarios are also fictitious. I reserve my right to change my opinion/mind at any time and bollocks to the royal welding.

Unemployable

I was thinking about how many jobs I have had in 35 years and remembered that at 22 it had already reached 80. Some only lasted a few minutes before I realised I couldn’t be arsed and some lasted as long as……… 2 months! There were a load of “training courses” included in that number and a few attempts at self employment. The one thing that did remain “constant” was “Boredom”! I quickly became bored with all of it.

I went to the “Employment advice centre” in BSE once and had a full assessment of what I could do. The man who saw me was a retired businessman who after 2 weeks of deliberation kindly informed me, “I was Unemployable”! NOT because I wasn’t capable of any particular job, but because he thought I was more “Self employed” material. Problem was, that at the time the DHSS considered a “Bucket and ladder” the best way to get people started, I think it was more likely they didn’t want to invest any more money than the cost of same!

Now I am NOT work shy! But I DO insist that if I am to provide MY labour in return for money, I would like the lion’s share of that money for myself. I haven’t really managed to get beyond 80% of it going on “Living” expenses and a little “Pocket money” left for me, so I am not going to do that. I have looked quite carefully at the rise in living costs over the years and the “Lack” of rise in earnings, the most obvious example being the cost of a house/flat whatever. It was once possible to buy one on your tod with a mortgage that could be dealt with in 25 years! That is no longer possible for the average earner, that tells me, “we are being shagged” it has been a sneaky steady increase in what one pays to live and has been largely ignored because the anaesthetic is television. I haven’t watched it for 6 months now and I find my brain is starting to get stimulated again. See the problem for me is, I am easily led into falling for the “shiny” things! Yes, I loved expensive clothes and watches. For fucks sake, I have “Zimmerli” underwear! There is a photo on my FB I looked at yesterday and realised that every piece of clothing was a “Label” not just an average designer label, oh no, jacket was a 100% Cashmere blazer, shirt, Brioni, Tie, Emilio Pucci, Watch, Cartier, socks, Pantherella, Trousers,  Loro Piana, Boots, John Lobb and yes Undies, Zimmerli! Now had my name been Alan Sugar or Donald Trump, I might have been able to get away with it but FFS, I was potless! Slowly but surely I am getting rid of all these “Illusions” on eBay. I had suckered for Mark Twain’s quote “Clothes make the man” they may well have had an influence on how one was viewed back in the 1880’s and it would still help open a few doors today but that is totally “Dishonest”! I have even been refused work because the interviewer was “Intimidated” by my appearance, a professional recruitment company in NZ told me “try and dress down” as you will find it hard to get a job looking too smart!

Having been “dishonest” in my life I know it is useless. I don’t want to be dishonest in any areas anymore; it’s a fucking trial having to maintain an illusion in both appearance and manner. It is also what keeps the status quo, rich, poor, them us etc. as long as I have a hole in my arse I will not accept there is any justification in one man having billions when billions have nothing. I am not a socialist, I just don’t see why “Hard work” should ever result in little reward and some do very little and get millions. If “I” worked hard to build up a business and it made millions and was the result of help from all the workers then the share should be more equal.

When I call a call centre and get some slack mouthed indolent tosser who is of no help, I am NOT going to be surprised!

Where am I going with this? Well, if I had left school and pursued a course of action not unlike the one most people have followed, and then after 35 years realised that things were not any better than when I left school, “I would be majorly pissed off”

How many times have the goal posts moved! And if you say “ah, that’s life”! I am certainly going to reply “Is it”!?

Going to watch the “Royal”? Wedding this weekend? Remember the last one? If I were Kate, I would try my best not to piss off Philip and steer well clear of Paris! “I” don’t know what really happened, but then “No one does”! Suffice to say it was about as honest as a banker.

Wiki leaks are only a problem because they don’t want us to know the devious bullshit that goes on in our name. And whether we like it or not, it’s ALL about flogging guns and buying oil!

And the worst of everything is the Media. They know full well that if they run a story and then pull it, it will be forgotten about quite quickly! My problem if you like, is I still remember “Stephen Waldorf” Sean Greenhaulgh, Ben Lewis’s report on the Art scam, all the things that have quietly gone away but the shit that created or surrounds them is still happening. You may say, well, the Stephen Waldorf” thing is done and dusted? What about “Ian Puddick” then? Waldorf just got pistol whipped, Puddick is being “Terrorised”! That seems like a major escalation of tactics. And what are millions of people going to do this weekend? “Watch the |Royal wedding and wonder who designed her dress!

Raymond Baxter told me all sorts of brilliant things would happen by now, and I fell for it! That really pisses me off. 

I just proofed the above before deciding to post it and I thought “what a load of aggressive reactionary disjointed anger that is! But then, I still believe it, I did think, but I am not that angry!! I have a great laugh generally; I love to find humour in life, “fuck me”  “I have to”

Luckily, all that is how I feel and I don’t have to make it my life’s story. All I insist on is keeping well aware of my surroundings and a weather eye on when I need to get out the crossbow and dig in!

“Coming soon, Relationships”! (I should cocoa)